Stream of Consciousness.

I haven't done one of these blogs in a while. But they are good for getting thoughts down! See if you can follow.

I'm listening to mewithoutYou again. I really like Aaron Weiss. He's not autistic, so whichever one of you internet jerks started that rumor, you can take it right back. He's a stinkin' genius.

One of my friends says he (Aaron Weiss)'s not a Christian. I have never talked to Aaron, but this is the same friend who says that Catholics aren't saved... every Catholic I've met confesses with their mouth that Jesus is Lord and believes in their heart that He is raised from the dead. But I guess that's not a Christian (kidding). Aaron has an amazing story of his realization to serve and love... for this I look up to him.

I strongly dislike people who believe they are always right. Especially when that person is a Christian but they constantly put down the beliefs of other Christians. Way to promote the idea of the Church. *slow, mean clap* Truth is, we don't know everything about God. Get off your high horse and love instead of condemn. Get back to the basics, don't argue the smaller stuff and thus push people away from the Truth.

I strongly dislike people who are persuasive. Especially if they're persuasive in a bad way. Let me make my own decisions, dang it, and stop trying to ruin other people's lives just because they're not living the exact same way you are.

I really love a lot of people. I love even the people who I dislike strongly, even when it's hard. Loving those who make you mad consistently is not fun, but it needs to be done. I know I'm not the best at this, but I'm working at it. Give me some time and a lot of do-overs please. I'm gonna need them.

Drama is one of my least favorite things in the whole wide world. I'm done with college, there shouldn't be any of that junk. I enjoy open, honest communication. I seek to hurt no one's feelings. I put my wants and needs aside to help as much as I can. Just let me do that, please? Don't get mad at me for dumb little things that have no meaning. Don't get mad at me for loving you as a friend. And for goodness sake, don't take everything I do as "Oh my goodness, this girl wants to date me." And girls, don't take it as "Oh my goodness, this girl tries too hard." Because, if I have to be honest with you, my friends mean a lot to me. I do go out of my way to talk to them and be around them and I will ask them a lot to hang out just so I can be a (hopefully encouraging) part of their world. After all, that's what I'm called to do. I'm a relational person, so are you. So stop trying to be cooler than encouragement, laughs, and pure, undefiled friendship.

Oh, and if a friend brings drama into a friendship, I'll smack it right to Mars and tell it never to come back. And drama listens to me... by goodness, yes it does. Just ask the high schoolers in our youth group at church.

I just want to sit down with Aaron Weiss and listen. Just listen. About anything and everything. And potentially nothing.

I say the word "goodness" a lot. Sorry.

I'm really happy God wrote the Bible. It could have potentially been really awful if He hadn't. And by really awful I mean intensely awful. I would have very little to read, since many of the books I read are based on things the Bible says.

Wouldn't it be cool to live like the early Church? Sharing everything with everyone? Knowing the Holy Spirit, having Church in homes, living in community with a ton of believers and sharing Him and His riches with everyone you know? Serving together? Loving each other?

Sometimes I think it's okay to live with an ideal in mind. You know, always making advances toward living in that ideal. I know I will never be able to live exactly like the early church, but I can try!

All of this talk has me looking at the Jesus People website. Again. Why I do this, I don't know. I so want to live down there with them... but I have a feeling that if I visit again, this time I won't leave. I won't want to leave.

I love living at my new house. I hate being here alone. It's so... lonely. Oh well!

Time to go clean. And listen to Bradley Hathaway and more mewithoutYou. And maybe some of The Wedding... although they cancelled their show here on Friday, so I'm not the happiest with them.

In other news, I am instead driving up to Fargo, ND on December 9th if the weather is good. I have to go see For Today because I haven't seen them since the end of August. I miss them, even though I don't get to hang out with them much when I see them. It will still be worth it.